It’s easy to be nice to people when you feel ooey-gooey and everything is wonderful. But what about when God is asking you to love somebody that you’d like to punch in the eye?
Everyone has been hurt, offended, betrayed and mistreated at some point. Sometimes those wounds are small and easy to move past, but other times, they are deep and take time to heal. The important thing is that we choose to forgive so that we can open the door to God’s forgiveness and healing in our own lives.
Whenever you pray, invite the Lord to search your heart. Choose to forgive anyone that has hurt you. As you walk in forgiveness, you’ll experience His hand of blessing in ways you never thought possible, and you will move forward in the abundant life He has in store for you
It’s time like these that I keep reminding myself… how fortunate I am to have Lisa as my research supervisor and thesis advisor. I cannot imagine any other Brown faculty doing what she is doing for me right now. She could have left me to sink with my thesis, yet she’s procrastinating together with me at this very moment, as if my problem were hers as well. I mean, really, I don’t deserve any of this.
I’ve been struggling with many thoughts of self-doubt today. Doubts about my future. Doubts about my capabilities. Doubts about my potential. Doubts about my worth. It surprises me that I’m filled with these thoughts, considering how I’m usually pretty confident with everything that I do. Yet, everything suddenly started crashing down on me in the past 12 hours, and it continues to come and go like the tides, threatening to swallow me whole. Damn it’s tough ride.
OK, time to wash up and take an hour nap. There will be no sleep tonight and tomorrow night. Well, almost no sleep.
I think I might be slowly going insane.
Never have I procrastinated this badly.
The next two nights are going to be really, really long.
Hopefully Lisa drops off the whole bunch of P-values with me tomorrow and I’ll just slot them in as I see fit. She wants me to take this weekend to work on the thesis too but I’ve biochem on Tuesday and my weekend is already packed as it is. I don’t have any bandwidth to do anything else now. I just want to finish the presentation on Friday, turn in the hard copies and be done with everything. For once, I wished I had a supervisor who had driven me a little harder.
The complications continue to grow. I desperately need to simplify everything, cut to the chase, make it straightforward.
Fuck all of this.
It feels like I’ve made zero progress over the last 6 hours.
What a massive struggle. D:
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Here’s to some 7am jams
Me after a cappuccino + extra shot.
My suspicion, is that this narrow slice of pie is more likely the exception rather than the norm.
On the many things that Angus and I agree on, I think this is probably one which we both have little doubt about.
Enough speculation. Besides, we’re out of here in a couple of weeks, and then the real life begins. After that, none of this will matter anymore.
Although you will never imagine how difficult it is… to say good bye to you.